Healing Steps
While one-on-one conversation and prayer by phone or email is a better way to walk you through the healing process, the initial steps to healing include the following (although not necessarily in order or exhaustive!):
1. Ask God for forgiveness. Romans 3:23 says,“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.” By asking God for forgiveness, you are asking Him to cleanse you from your sins—whatever they may be—related to the pastoral sexual abuse or not. Asking for forgiveness from God does not change the fact that the pastor (or spiritual leader) is responsible and that you are a victim of abuse and exploitation. It does, however, open the avenue for the Lord to hear your prayers and to work in your life. In Psalm 66:18, King David states, “If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.” In many cases, although a victim, lies were told, adultery was committed, false witness was borne (albeit all under the context of abuse)…these are all things that we must confess and for which we must seek God’s forgiveness. There is never any harm is seeking God’s forgiveness at any and at all times.
2. Accept God’s forgiveness for yourself. What we mean by this is for you to allow yourself to accept God’s forgiveness and believe that you have been forgiven. 1 John 1:9 says, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” Once you’re forgiven, there’s no need for you to continue to beat yourself up over your past experiences or behavior. Jesus has promised to give you a new heart and, when you confess and repent, you become a new creature in Christ. You may also want to read this article about forgiveness.
3. Tell your spouse (unless your spouse is physically abusive and to do so would place you in imminent danger)! For tips on how to handle this, see “How do I tell my husband?”
4. Trust completely in God. This should actually be number one but, considering the type of abuse you have just suffered, you will no doubt have mixed feelings about God for a while still. Psalm 40:4 says, “Blessed is that man that maketh the LORD his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.” And, Psalm 118:8 declares, “It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.” God understands your anger and pain. He is patient and He loves you. ALWAYS!
5. Immerse yourself in God’s Word (the Bible) and let Him speak to you through it. He will heal you spiritually and emotionally. John 6:63 tells us,“It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life.” And, in Matthew 4:4 Jesus says, “…It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” Here are some additional Bible Promises and Other Quotes!
6. Forgive your perpetrator. Please note that this does NOT mean that you should reconcile or maintain a friendship/relationship of any kind with the person who abused you. Forgiveness means letting go and allowing God to vindicate you and bring about justice in His time and way, as well as punishment for the person who has harmed you. In many cases, reconciliation is neither helpful nor appropriate. Forgiveness is a process and, if you ask God to make you willing to forgive, He will help you. Do not allow others to pressure you to forgive if you are not ready.
7. Make amends to those you have hurt by your actions. You are not asking for forgiveness for being abused, you are asking for forgiveness for not being able to come forward sooner, prevent the abuse, for the willful sins you may have committed during the abuse (lying, adultery, and so on), etc. Discretion is important, as is prayer and guidance from the Holy Spirit.
“If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.”—James 1:5
8. You may need to relocate, change jobs, find a new church, etc.
By now you may be asking, “How do I change my life and start over?” You start by praying and asking God to forgive you for your sins and to help you to know truth. Ask Him to heal you emotionally, spiritually and physically. Ask Him to help you overcome your past character weaknesses and hurts.
“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.”—Psalms 51:10
He will gladly and willingly give you all that you ask (in accordance with His will) and more! He is more than willing and able to renew your heart and give you a new start.
“And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.”—Matthew 21:22
If the Minister Tempts
“The slightest insinuations, from whatever source they may come, inviting you to indulge in sin or to allow the least unwarrantable liberty with your persons should be resented as the worst of insults to your dignified womanhood. The kiss upon your cheek, at an improper time and place, should lead you to repel the emissary of Satan with disgust. If it is from one in high places, who is dealing in sacred things, the sin is of tenfold greater magnitude and should lead a God-fearing woman or youth to recoil with horror, not only from the sin he would have you commit, but from the hypocrisy and villainy of one whom the people respect and honor as God’s servant.”—The Adventist Home, page 335-336 (Ellen G. White)
Promises of Love & Forgiveness
“It is Satan’s work to fill men’s hearts with doubt. He leads them to look upon God as a stern judge. He tempts them to sin, and then to regard themselves as too vile to approach their heavenly Father or to excite His pity. The Lord understands all this. Jesus assures His disciples of God’s sympathy for them in their needs and weaknesses. Not a sigh is breathed, not a pain felt, not a grief pierces the soul, but the throb vibrates to the Father’s heart.”—The Desire of Ages, page 356
“Christ will never abandon those for whom He has died. We may leave Him and be overwhelmed with temptation, but Christ can never turn from one for whom He has paid the ransom of His own life.”—Prophets and Kings, page 176